Been a While...Moving on

Well its been quite a while since I have written anything...so much has gone on and decisions had to be made...all I know is I tried..and I know that put everything I could into this. I have decided that moving on is all I can do. I have realized that the person I thought I loved never existed and will never exist and that this man will never change..nothing has changed..and I won't be held back any longer. Ready to start living life again. Apart of me feels like I have failed..but then apart of me feels like if I continue to stay in this position then I have failed not only myself but my children.

I have been doing really well..I am actually happy can you believe that?? me happy?? lol seems like such a foreign concept after so many years of drama pain and issues..Its a little scary to move on from the past but I am looking forward to what the future may hold for me..still love my favorite verse.."For I know the plans I have for you plans for good and not for evil" I know that the road I lead is uncertain and I don't know where it will take me so just taking one step at a time..I am soo thankful to the loving family and friends I have that have stood with me through this time..let me cry on their shoulders, laugh with them, and been there to support me in everything.I am actually excited about the next chapter in my life and seeing where this road will lead to..bad things happen and sometimes there is nothing you can do about them but let them go. But like I said I have full knowledge and comfort in knowing I did all I could do and feel that I am finally doing the right thing for me and my family. So off I go into the unknown with my eyes wide open...so no hope is lost..just changed to a different angle...hope for the future and the wonderful journey that lies ahead..