Its been a while and I was hoping that feeling I had before would go away about being in my new house..but something didn't sit right here..not sure what it was but I do now..sigh..and yet again feel like another failure has come upon me. So I am moving again..Blah I hate moving soo much..but this is gonna make things alot easier to start over. I'm so sick of starting over though..the minute things are going good..wham..everything falls apart. I'm trying Lord you know I am..to the point where I am scared of making decisions cause I just feel like no matter what I decide its gonna be wrong. I just want to be able to live and be a good servant of the lords be the best mother to my kids..and hopefully get the chance again to be a wife one day.
So I leave in about a week and I have nothing done..as usual lol gonna wait till the last three days. Thankfully when I moved this time I really got rid of alot of stuff so this should make things easier. I also decided to sell almost all my furniture. Just decided if I am starting over from scratch it seems well..better get rid of all the things that had to do with my marriage. Everything I have we bought pretty much when we got married. So out with the old in with the new. I ready for a fresh new beginning. So here we go on another wild ride. Maybe I cannot screw it up this time...we shall see.
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