answered and unanswered prayers

Each day brings new challaneges, things are always changing and you never know whats gonna happen next...the past couple days have been a mix of answered prayers and unanswered prayers..but I have to first and formost thank god..although be it I have no clue how the conversation included this I found out my husband is seeking the lord.. Which has been such a deep deep prayer for me I cannot..well I am sure just from my post you have seen how many tears I have cried begging the lord to not let him turn away from him. As far as some of the ideas he is having about the lord not sure where he is getting his information but atleast I know a little better how to pray for him instead of just Lord don't let him go...but praise God.. I had asked the Lord over and over again please show me something that your working because my heart is weary and this path is hard and even the smallest glimpse something so show me that you are doing what you said you will.. and sure enough there we go.. God is soo good...and yet we choose to not believe him..He says he will not withold any good things from us.. and its a good thing for reconciliation, its a good thing to want the Lord as head of your family in all aspects, and its a good thing to know eternity will be spent together with the ones you love.

Now of course any issues with our marriage and any kind of reconciliation is still a LONG ways off I think anyways..I don't know how God plans to mend all this but I know he will. Because he has never waivered in what he has always spoken to me regarding my marriage and regarding what I needed to do as far as me and God goes.. I just haven't always chosen to follow it cause I think I know better.. which obviously I don't..The Divorce is still on the table and apart of me expects to see the papers in the mail and apart of me doesn't...but it is not my job to convince him of what the bible says and not only that what God has spoken to my heart..Thats between him and the Lord he chooses what he will do..But it cannot involve me in that process I gave him some scripture to look up..but other than that...I just can't..it has to be God working in his life.. and I pray in time..God's time...he will listen to the lord.

So I will pray and try to calm my heart that leaps with the thought he is atleast trying to open his heart up to what God has to say..because the road ahead is not easy and its very long but when Jesus carries you you know what.. it aint that bad of a ride when you can sleep on his shoulder.

So Lord thanks for always being faithful, knowing that you don't owe me a sign or anything because the only sign I ever need is on the cross..but yet you know my heart and you know that I needed that you are soo merciful that even while we struggle with things and unbelief you are still sitting there going ..if you would just believe me..believe I can do all I said I will because I work all things for your good because you love me..oh how precious our savior is that he comes down to our level and shows us small glimpses to calm are heart and to continue to endure. He is such a great encourager and I am so blessed to call him my father.